this is a compilation of my FB updates chronicling the awesome body work I have been doing! I am also using LoseIt, an iPhone app that is a food and exercise journal with pretty graphs that awaken my RPG stat motivations! It has been really helpful watching myself get increasingly better at my health in a concrete way! In dedicating an hour of exercise and all day food awareness to myself, I have begun to appreciate my body in ways I never have before… and have in fact realized that while loosing the 75 pounds I need to lose (210 to 135, my old healthy weight circa 1998) is going to take a consistent lifestyle change over a good amount of time, it is now obvious that my body is going to bounce back without any problems as long as I take good care of it- and I am! So many things in my life are feeling this way to me now- my body, music school, my novel, Japanese, romance, friendships, children, money, adventure, career, finding a place I love… all of my dreams are now framed in certainty and patience. Having achieved so much of what I “knew” was impossible years ago, my sense of self-efficacy has finally become realistic in relation to my abilities and potential (aka, I really do have what it takes to do anything I want in this life in a good enough way!)! This sense of myself is exactly what I wanted as the fruit of all the intensely difficult personal revolution I did over the past 7 years… I am in awe that this era has truly arrived! After braving the dark and doing what needed to be done, I am stepping into the light of my real life! I never thought I could feel this way. No, that’s not true… I had touched it a few times. I suppose I mean that I never thought I would be able to live here in this fulfilled and securely positive perspective. Comparing this to my writings years ago… wow.
Sequoia Rainbow Eowyn Wild is so happy with her body! The opening and range of motion stretches I have been doing for my hips and knees are really working! I am now able to sit (with a bolster) with my knees bent to the outside, like this: ./\o/\. (my butt is the o and my feet are the .) My hips had gotten so tight that they used to slip partly out of joint if just one was in that position ( ././\\o ) so this is a huge accomplishment!!!
Sequoia Rainbow Eowyn Wild and thanks to kung fu school for helping me learn the difference between “something is being injured” and “your body hasn’t done this since you were a baby but is totally designed for this” pain sensation!!!
Sequoia Rainbow Eowyn Wild can totally feel the unbalancing effects of the high-simple-sugar foods she ate yesterday and today… time for a gentle cleanse to get rebalanced! Perfect for the new year!
Sequoia Rainbow Eowyn Wild has learned that skipping even one day of her PT, even while taking good care of my body otherwise, results in way too much pain.
Sequoia Rainbow Eowyn Wild The problem with eating so late is I am so hungry I eat too much, and then have to wait too long to digest before exercising or I feel sick… I wish I had time for a proper lunch at work or got home before 9:30!
Sequoia Rainbow Eowyn Wild My PT needs are hard to meet- my rhomboids are so weak that they are almost impossible to target… doing rows, push ups, wall leans, etc are either too hard to do properly but when I execute one properly I can feel it, or I lessen the tension on the stretch tube and can do the action but I don’t feel anything… sigh… and if I don’t do my PT, boy am I sore and stiff and I can’t stand up straight… this will be an ongoing educational experience… Exercising wouldn’t be so bad if my muscles didn’t hurt so much…
Sequoia Rainbow Eowyn Wild Every day, forever, no matter what. October 14th!